You hear so much … did you think I didn’t hear about all the young men who go to Syria to fight some holy war? I am terrified! I don’t want to lose my child, but I don’t know what I can do. After all, he’s an adult. What should I do? Talking about problems is not very popular with boys anyway and even less with their mother. Why should I be suspicious anyway? There was always something on when I passed his room. Nowadays they are always on their mobile phones, on chats or on YouTube. Of course, I noticed that he has become more and more unapproachable. At some point I asked him why Mischa, his best buddy, hasn’t been around for a while. He brushed me off, “Someone like that can’t be my friend anymore. But you wouldn’t understand that.” Of course, now it’s all coming back to me. That wasn’t music I heard through the door of his room, but rather strangely monotonous songs and angry talk. The fact that he stopped going to training and locked himself in. And now this image, this terrible bearded …